Here is a real life example of how interlinked our physical symptoms can be to our emotional issues!
It’s always pretty amazing to see scenarios of the mind body connection, the way things present and looking at the physical issue as well as the emotional one. Last Saturday night, I was out for dinner after a very emotional week prior which resulted in me setting some boundaries to protect myself going forward. I felt fine with the way things turned out, despite how hurtful it was and I felt like I had let go of my expectations and emotional pain linked to feelings of abandonment and rejection. But I hadn’t. There was an anger within that I had been suppressing. I was chatting away in the space of the person I confronted, feeling as though I was totally fine but my body had other plans. Our meals had not yet come out but suddenly I could taste what seemed like blood in my mouth. It was unusual and powerful enough to draw my attention internally. What followed was acute pain in my upper abdomen, in the location of my epigastric and gallbladder.
The pain got more intense, to the point of me bracing in an attempt to breathe through it, however instead of easing, it got worse. The genes on my Dads side of the family have a predisposition to heart disease but I’m a pretty healthy person, although I do have some food sensitivities. I am very aware of nutrition for a healthy lifestyle but when I eat out, I always keep digestive enzymes on me just in case the foods I order contain hidden ingredients I don’t digest well. All I had eaten so far was a tiny bit of fish to encourage my 21 month old son to eat his dinner. I usually have no problems consuming fish but given the pain, I took a digestive enzyme in the hope it would ease the symptoms.
The pain didn’t ease and I became a little concerned so I called Nurse on Call to see what the blood taste was about and if the pain could be something serious. While on the phone, the pain began travelling up through my chest and back. I became short of breath. My left arm went tingly as well as both hands. I could see my forearms and hands, I was white as a ghost and clammy. An ambulance was called by the nurse I was talking too. She began passing on instructions to care for me until the ambulance arrived. I was moved into the mothers and babies room and advised to get down on the floor, they found me an aspirin to take and I was instructed not to drink any water. Having seen someone suffer a heart attack before, and doing first aid CPR 9 times now, I knew exactly what they were treating me for, which was the scariest moment I’ve ever faced, but the fear subsided when I saw they had the defib machine at hand. If this was a heart attack and I needed resuscitation I knew I would be ok. All I could really think about was my son, who would comfort him if I passed out, could someone call my husband from his presentation evening to come get our boy and then I recalled the words of one of my dear friends who taught me reiki, reminding me I have a whole team of spiritual guides willing and able to help me if I allowed them too, so in that moment I called out to them.
Coincidentally I also bought myself a new deck of healing cards the day before of which the first card I pulled from it was a reminder to pray, which I don’t do because it reminds me of religion, and after growing up in a religious cult, I struggle to do anything that reminds me of those times where I was deeply influenced by belief stemmed from fear. However I do believe there is power in nature and the universe and that help is available when we ask for it. Within moments of calling for help I felt a wave of ease come over me, the pain subsided enough that I was able to sit up off the floor and take a full breath, and as I breathed out that breathe I was back to feeling and looking fine. Like 100% fine. I wanted to go outside for a run, I felt that good!
The ambos had literally arrived as I was telling my brother and everyone else around me that I was feeling well, laughing in disbelief and relief that I had suddenly come good again. My heart was checked, blood pressure taken, everything was fine. I went to the Austin ED for an ECG, blood test and urine test and was discharged 4 hours later with mention it may have been a panic attack with nothing else identified, but a recommendation to get a CT scan in the days that followed.
When it comes to health, I believe in a whole approach to wellness, a mix of eastern and western medicine, as well as looking into the spiritual/emotional and physical symptoms of what’s going on. As someone who works with energy, I understand how our environment, thoughts, emotions and beliefs can affect our physical wellbeing too, I decided to approach this differently than most people would. It’s times like this that I wish I could use Applied Muscle Testing on myself too but I can’t however only a month earlier I had been to visit a kinesiologist who advised that my adrenals were needing a little bit of TLC so I already knew of one possible area I could start exploring more.
The event had left me with a lot of tightness in my chest, back and neck and I still had discomfort in my upper abdomen. What followed was a week jam packed of appointments. A GP appointment for a CT scan referral, a myotherapist to release my tightnesses. A reiki session to balance my chakras and it just so happened I already had an osteo appointment booked in along with another kinesiology follow up soon after. The GP organised an abdomen CT scan which came back revealing no issues. The Myotherapist massaged my chest, abdomen, hip flexors, neck and back over two appointments. My kinesiology and reiki sessions were informative, confronting and healing in so many ways. I booked these because the Doctors at the hospital and GP had ruled out heart, epigastric and gallbladder. I also had all the symptoms of a gallbladder attack of some type so I wanted to get to the bottom of what was behind this pain.
Energetically, the gallbladder is linked to the sacral chakra, so I felt I needed some balancing done.
Adrenal support came up in my reiki session as previously detected in my kinesiology appointment and during that session energy returned to my digestive system after releasing feelings of sadness and abandonment that were directly linked to the personal issue I confronted the week before.
I left with a recommendation to meditate daily, to visualise floating in attempt to allow myself to let go. And this is where it all gets really cool!
The first night my meditation was a struggle. I didn’t get much from it other than I was dealing with a negative emotion and I wasn’t allowing myself to be. I couldn’t float, I was going nowhere. Using coaching methods I use to help people understand emotions and reasons behind their behaviours and actions, I then spent a day looking deeper into the issue, to discover love and connection was the way I could release my feelings of sadness and abandonment to would help me grow deeper into the person I was ready to become. As I worked creating the next lesson of my online coaching workshop (Bad Habit Overhaul) I realised all my weaknesses can be solved by identifying where I have love and connection now. Motherhood has started me on such an incredible new chapter of my life. The healing process began when I stood back to reflect on my life. I realised that 10 years ago, when I began showing myself love and connected to my own needs and wants, I then attracted love and connection into my life and met my husband, and now I also have the beautiful connection of mother and child with my son as well. This process helped me balance out those feelings of abandonment with something rich and rewarding that my life also contained. The things I have achieved in the past 10 years have been beyond my wildest dreams. What’s also funny is that a Facebook reminder popped up today from 12 months ago where I acknowledged all my successes linked back to love and connection! So the following night was my second meditation attempt. I failed again. I was to tired to stay awake so I tried again first thing this morning and it was a good one! I was able to float and sail through the water however as I laid there in bed visualising myself freely floating I then felt a pain in my left hamstring.
Our left side of the body is linked to masculine aspects, in my case, a masculine energy, but I researched the spiritual meaning of hamstring pain to discover this:
1. YOU NEED TO LET GO
“You have to let go of some control and allow yourself to be vulnerable. Ways to practice letting go: • Meditation • Try practicing yoga blindfolded • Dance unapologetically • Confront whoever hurt you
2. YOU ARE NOT ALONE ANYMORE
Tight hamstrings can also be formed in infancy. Neglect, abandonment or a loveless home environment can cause loneliness in a child”
WTAF! I could have fallen out of my skin when I read this! Everything tied in perfectly with my life and what came out of my reiki session.
This of course is only a part of what’s wrong but I believe for healing to take place, the physical and spiritual are always best addressed together.
The journey continued! I had my osteo appointment which was also very informative, giving me clarification of some things that helped me see that I am who I am, until I’m not, and that my life is exactly on path. Another reminder that all I need I have within. Interestingly though, adrenals came up again indicating my body needs rest so that was something physical I can bring in while I support my adrenals better through nutrition and supplementation. I was feeling good but tired from a week of investigating, soul searching and research! All of which could have been simplified I was able to use my method of muscle testing on myself to see what was at the root of the issue I needed to address. I wanted an answer; Are my adrenals causing my gallbladder some type of dis-ease or is it my emotional state? If it is my adrenals, I’d be able to test from some of the best supplements I have access too see exactly what I need to take so support such an important system. I’ll eventually get my answer and my body will heal but it’s just going to take a little time as I work through this in the next best way I know how too.
Amazing isn’t it?! How amazing are our bodies. It always has messages for us, but are we always listening, or willing to listen?
Applied Muscle Testing allows me to address symptoms from both a physical and emotional perspective, even pinpointing what emotion is causing the disruption or discomfort in the body. By pin pointing where the disruption is coming from you can move forward knowing exactly what aspects need to be addressed for you to experience better health and wellness. If you would like to work with a mind body coach, an Applied Muscle Testing session will be beneficial for you. You can drop me a line here.